joining together with dear Kate and other writerly friends to get my thoughts out on a topic in five minutes. we spill our hearts….and see what results. Make sure you visit someone near you who has linked up…that’s the only rule 😉
I have found some safe people in this online community. But then i wonder, is it easier to be vulnerable when you have the screen to hide behind. I mean I trust these ladies and I’m so thankful for them…but what does that translate to in my real life? Am i pouring more into my online relationships then my real life ones?
I have always struggled with making true, deep friends. especially with girls. It took me a long time to be able to connect with girls and make friendships. I’m not always a good friend, because there are times when i get overwhelmed with the needs of friends and keeping up friendships and i run away into my head and into the quiet. I’m so thankful that God’s given me friends that give me grace in spite of that. and I’m learning in turn to extend grace in the same manner…moment by moment.
It has been my privilege to meet people in real life and get to know them and then continue our online relationships with that knowledge of a bit about who that person is in real life. I came back from the first Jumping Tandem with the idea that i’d met so many amazing people and I would stay in touch with all of them. And i’ve kept in touch with many and been so blessed. The same with the retreat i attended last year. And then i begin to get overwhelmed because I have a tendency to be needing to take in ALL the information and I have so many people to follow and speak into their life and interact with…and i start to see myself running and hiding again.
So i’m learning to take deep breaths. I’m learning that I can be me in real life and online in a safe community. And i’m learning that friendship is grown one moment at a time, with lots of grace covering the whole thing. Cause Heaven sure does know that I need ALOT of grace.