joining up pretty late with the people who write for five minutes on one subject and see what comes to rest on the page.
I like to think that doubt isn’t an everyday kind of thing. But then…i think it might be.
I would like to think that I can write sometimes I struggle with doubt. but that wouldn’t be the truth.
but i’m not sure that at times I can actually put my finger on what I doubt. But i know its there. Because I live my life like i’m in control, like I doubt he LOVES me, that He will ALWAYS be there, like i doubt that He has made me special, that He has made me beautiful, that He has made me with a purpose and plan.
I doubt it because I see people around me who seem to get it all. They see what He’s at work in. They see where He wants them to be. He sees how He has created them.
and I doubt. I doubt. it runs through my veins. It beats in my heart. and i believe it. Because its easier then fighting for the truth. its easier then knowing that indeed He DOES know. HE is in control. HE does LOVE me. HE WILL always be there. He has made me special. I need to shut my ears to the lies. I need to realize there is truth.
Even in the midst of all the doubt. He STILL loves me. He will calls to me. HE still loves me. that is what my heart should beat. that my heart should long for.